Happy New Years

It's been a pretty great year for me. I learned a lot (mostly about coding and how big an ass it is). I met people and made friends. I got a lot more books. I got a new bookshelf and rearranged my books too many times. I got back to watching The Royals.
Wasn't a good idea.
I hope everyone enjoys their New Years!
It's New Years Eve, I don't know why I'm posting this.
Just go with it.

CoHo Binge Wrap-Up

        The month of December was "dedicated" to reading CoHo books. I had a lot of fun reading her books and seeing her writing style evolve thoughout her books. CoHo's earlier works are very different to her later works. I thought Hopeless was disappointing. I really didn't like it. The relationship happened really fast and it felt juvenile. I never finished Maybe Someday because I just didn't like the first pages. I know, bad description. It was a bout how a girl was in a long-term, terrible relationship, but for some reason, she falls in love with a life-changing guy.
        I really liked Slammed. I thought the supporting characters were outstanding. They created such a nice atmosphere. It was very welcoming and loving. It gives you all sorts of feels. I was very emotional.
        If you're looking for a dark, mysterious romance, without alpha males, Never Never is great. It's dark, mysterious, captivating, alluring and the dual-writing-partnership-thing was seamless. It's hard to tell that two authors wrote the books together. However, I recommend you marathon the series, once they're ALL out. The cliff-hangers will drive you crazy.
        If you never read a CoHo book, but plan to, I recommend you read the books in this order.
  1. Slammed: a really light intro to CoHo
  2. Hopeless/Maybe Someday: not my favorite books, but definitely give them a try.
  3. Never Never: a bit dark, but super enjoyable
  4. Ugly Love: it's steamy and slightly dark. (I'm trying to go from dark to light)
  5. November 9: a cute relationship that's unrealistic.
  6. Confess: the holy grail.

OMG THIS BOOK!



Slammed (Slammed #1)
Author: Colleen Hoover
Publish Date: January 4, 2012
Publisher: Atria
Status: Finished
         Following the unexpected death of her father, 18-year-old Layken is forced to be the rock for both her mother and younger brother. Outwardly, she appears resilient and tenacious, but inwardly, she's losing hope.
         Enter Will Cooper: The attractive, 21-year-old new neighbor with an intriguing passion for slam poetry and a unique sense of humor. Within days of their introduction, Will and Layken form an intense emotional connection, leaving Layken with a renewed sense of hope.
         Not long after an intense, heart-stopping first date, they are slammed to the core when a shocking revelation forces their new relationship to a sudden halt. Daily interactions become impossibly painful as they struggle to find a balance between the feelings that pull them together, and the secret that keeps them apart.

Trusting Stone



Trusting Stone
Author: Alexa Sinclaire
Publish Date: November 19, 2015
Publisher: Evernight Publishing
Status: Finished
        Eden Walker used to be a good girl. She followed the rules, obeyed her parents, and reaped the benefits. Until the night one wrong step showed her that all that glitter is not gold. Now she’s starting over, trying to do things on her own terms, and find the passion she’s only dreamt about. 
        Sebastian Stone never expected to find love. His past is too painful for him to imagine letting someone in enough to love. He’s happy focusing on his security company, and he’s happy with his one-night-stands. Until he bumps into Eden, a blast from his past. 
        Sebastian makes Eden realize she’s still scared to follow the passion she knows is missing from her life. Eden is the woman for him, but can Sebastian convince Eden to follow her dreams all the way through? Or will circumstances beyond her control pull them apart?

Fooling Around With Cinderella Review


Fooling Around With Cinderella (Storybook Valley #1)
Author: Stacy Juba
Publish Date: September 24, 2015
Publisher: Thunder Horse Press
Status: DNF
       What happens when the glass slippers pinch Cinderella’s toes? When Jaine Andersen proposes a new marketing role to the local amusement park, general manager Dylan Callahan charms her into filling Cinderella’s glass slippers for the summer. Her reign transforms Jaine’s ordinary life into chaos that would bewilder a fairy godmother. Secretly dating her bad boy boss, running wedding errands for her ungrateful sisters, and defending herself from the park’s resident villain means Jaine needs lots more than a comfy pair of shoes to restore order in her kingdom. First in the Storybook Valley series, a blend of sweet romance, chick lit, and fairy tale fun.

LOL, Eggsy....Why You Do This?



Kingsman: The Secret Service
Release Day: February 12, 2015
Genre: Crime & Science Fiction
Director: Matthew Vaughn
Rating: 3.75/5
Starring: Colin Firth, Samuel L. Jackson, and Michael Caine




Hopeless Review


Hopeless (Hopeless #1) by Colleen Hoover
Publish date: December 17, 2012
Publisher: Self
       Sometimes discovering the truth can leave you more hopeless than believing the lies…
       That’s what seventeen-year-old Sky realizes after she meets Dean Holder. A guy with a reputation that rivals her own and an uncanny ability to invoke feelings in her she’s never had before. He terrifies her and captivates her all in the span of just one encounter, and something about the way he makes her feel sparks buried memories from a past that she wishes could just stay buried.
       Sky struggles to keep him at a distance knowing he’s nothing but trouble, but Holder insists on learning everything about her. After finally caving to his unwavering pursuit, Sky soon finds that Holder isn’t at all who he’s been claiming to be. When the secrets he’s been keeping are finally revealed, every single facet of Sky’s life will change forever.

CoHo Book Binge: First

Never Never Part 1 & 2 by Colleen Hoover & Tarryn Fisher
Publish Dates: January 7, 2015 & May 17, 2015
I went into this series with absolutely no knowledge whatsoever (Just like Silas and Charlie.) I'm sorry. Throughout this review, I'll be referencing the book. I thought the series was completed, but now I have to wait until January 26, 2016 for the final installment. I'm so smart sometimes... So hangry with myself.

DAMN THIS BOOK: November 9 Review



November 9 by Colleen Hoover
Publish Date: November 10, 2015
Publisher: Atria Books

          Fallon meets Ben, an aspiring novelist, the day of her scheduled cross-country move. Their untimely attraction leads them to spend Fallon's last day in L.A. together, and her eventful life becomes the creative inspiration Ben has always sought for his novel. Over time and amidst the various relationships and tribulations of their own separate lives, they continue to meet on the same date every year. Until one day Fallon becomes unsure if Ben has been telling her the truth or fabricating a perfect reality for the sake of the ultimate plot twist.

The Birth of My Labyrinth Obsession

       I was going to write a post about the movies I watched, but I doubt Wild or The Purge: Anarchy are of significance compared to Labyrinth.
       I really should have not watched this movie because I can't stop thinking about it. It's been a really bad obsession. There's a song in the movie call Dance Magic and I sing it EVERYDAY. I had to train my friend to respond with the correct lyrics. My fixation with the movie did not stop there. I ended up changing my lock screen to this photo:
Dammit David Bowie/Jareth the Gobling King. Why you do this?!

Ten Thousand Skies Above You



Ten Thousand Skies Above You (Firebird #2)
Author: Claudia Gray
Publish Date: November 3, 2015
Publisher: HarperTeen
         Ever since she used the Firebird, her parents' invention, to cross into alternate dimensions, Marguerite has caught the attention of enemies who will do anything to force her into helping them dominate the multiverse-even hurting the people she loves. She resists until her boyfriend, Paul, is attacked and his consciousness scattered across multiple dimensions. 
         Marguerite has no choice but to search for each splinter of Paul’s soul. The hunt sends her racing through a war-torn San Francisco, the criminal underworld of New York City, and a glittering Paris where another Marguerite hides a shocking secret. Each world brings Marguerite one step closer to rescuing Paul. But with each trial she faces, she begins to question the destiny she thought they shared.

Two Book Reviews: Strings of DNF

The First Book


The Chicken Chronicles: How Chickens Ruined My Reputation
Author: Jennifer Mervine
       Never before has the dark and twisted psychosis of the backyard chicken been revealed...until now.
       Forget everything you think you know about chickens. You only know part of the truth. No one speaks of their sexual deviance and dark unknowable rituals. Flock keepers have remained silent on chicken's potential to disrupt familial harmony through sleep deprivation, needy behavior, binge eating and random acts of violence.
       This tale is the recollection of one woman's desperate struggle to hold on to her family, her friends, and her very sanity after she stumbled into the trap of urban chicken keeping.
        The author contacted me to review this book. Her presentation of this book was really funny. I got a grasp of her humor and I had a desire to read this book. When I started this book, I thought it was a bit of a mish-mosh. The thoughts were scattered and everywhere. I imagined this person using a lot of hand gestures speaking loudly and quickly. This person is also ranting and going on a tangent. That's pretty much the description of the writing. I couldn't relate to the book. It talked about taxes, wages being cut, etc. I'm fourteen-I know this is shocking because I act incredibly childish for my age. I'm still in school and I don't know what adults have to go through. I don't focus on politics because Donald Trump is everywhere. Since I couldn't relate to this book, I became disinterested. This book has been added to my long list of DNFs.


Second Book

Soul Mate (Immortal Love #1) by Anna Santos
       Annabel is a bad-ass hybrid hunter, seeking revenge from the vampire who killed her parents and put her brother in a coma. Arriving in a new town with an undercover identity to protect and the mission to find a pureblood vampire to save her brother’s life, the last thing Annabel needs is to fall in love with the sexy, persistent werewolf who thinks she’s a helpless human in need of a knight in shining armor.
       Shane is a dominant werewolf who also happens to be the local sheriff. He has almost lost hope of finding his better half. So when his beautiful soul-mate shows up and rogue vampires try to kill her, he does what any smart wolf would do: he saves her and takes her home, hoping to convince her that they belong together.
       When sparks fly between them, Annabel has to decide if she tells him who she really is or runs the other way to protect her secrets.
        I couldn't find a picture on google without a promo on the cover.....
       Anyway, I was contacted to review this book too. You can see that review requests is one of the motifs of this post.
       I was REALLY excited for this book because the author said, "0 stupid alpha males and leading girls." I literally squealed. I started crying because someone made the impossible possible. But, some things are too good to be true. EVERYTHING DISAPPOINTS ME.
       The first scene takes place at a bar. No judgement there, unless you're a thirty/forty-something-year-old man drinking vodka with cranberry juice through a straw. 
       You think that's bad? Well let me weave a little story for you, dearie. By story, I mean summarizing what I read, which was really little.

       A man who has lived multiple human lives (I think, I don't remember shit because I was honestly physically repulsed) is at a bar. This bar is full of vampires and shifters, WHOOOHOOO! Then, THE GIRL walks in. The man is utterly transfixed and decides to imprint her. #twilight-reference. He promises himself that he'll make her panties drop, she'll be his and only his, and to get in her leather suit. Whonderfewl... The man isn't the only one feeling attraction. Did I forget to mention that both characters are Mary Sue/Gary Stu.
       Yeah...Gary Stu/Mary Sue and Insta-Love/Insta-Lust are the ban of my existence. What do you know! They both make an appearance. The moral compass' of these characters need a lot of fine tuning. If a girl leaves a bar, you do not follow her out, even if there are vampires that want to kill her. If the girl faints, you do not bring her to your house. You attraction is distracting you from doing your job. If you wake up in this random person's house, without your clothes on and don't remember a thing about last night, get your fucking ass out of there. Do not stay for breakfast. It was so unrealistic. If you're including romance, take the time to develop it and have a good, plausible background/foundation.

The Divide Blitz: Giveaway & Excerpt




The Divide 
(Dreamland #2) by E.J. Mellow 
Publication date: October 15th 2015
Genres: Fantasy, New Adult

        Molly finally uncovers the truth about the strange dreams that plagued her sanity for weeks. Now destined to accept a clandestine role, Molly must find the strength and courage buried deep to push forward and succeed.
        With the help of Dev, the roguish blue-eyed man of her dreams-whose dark past resurfaces to haunt him-Molly prepares to test the limits of her newly awakened powers and set right a world on the edge of being consumed by nightmares.
        But when an unknown shadow stalks her every step and a shocking revelation about her ancestry comes to light, Molly may find herself forced to make a decision that could leave her alone in the dark and standing on the wrong side of a divide.


About the Author
        I'm the author behind the NA Contemporary Fantasy trilogy The Dreamland Series. When I'm not busy moonlighting in the realm of make-believe, I can be found doodling, buried in a book (usually this one), or playing video games.
~Website~Instagram~Facebook~Twitter~

The First Review in Forever



The Rose Society (The Young Elites #2)
Author: Marie Lu
Publishing: Putnam on October 13, 2015


         Once upon a time, a girl had a father, a prince, a society of friends. Then they betrayed her, and she destroyed them all.
         Adelina Amouteru’s heart has suffered at the hands of both family and friends, turning her down the bitter path of revenge. Now known and feared as the White Wolf, she and her sister flee Kenettra to find other Young Elites in the hopes of building her own army of allies. Her goal: to strike down the Inquisition Axis, the white-cloaked soldiers who nearly killed her.
         But Adelina is no heroine. Her powers, fed only by fear and hate, have started to grow beyond her control. She does not trust her newfound Elite friends. Teren Santoro, leader of the Inquisition, wants her dead. And her former friends, Raffaele and the Dagger Society, want to stop her thirst for vengeance. Adelina struggles to cling to the good within her. But how can someone be good, when her very existence depends on darkness?

Celebrating Halloween: Murder (Giveaway & Interview)

The Insanity Series by Cameron Jace



Insanity (#1)



          After accidentally killing everyone in her class, Alice Wonder is now a patient in the Radcliffe Lunatic Asylum. No one doubts her insanity. Only a hookah-smoking professor believes otherwise; that he can prove her sanity by decoding Lewis Carroll's paintings, photographs, and find Wonderland's real whereabouts. Professor Caterpillar persuades the asylum that Alice can save lives and catch the wonderland monsters now reincarnated in modern day criminals. In order to do so, Alice leads a double life: an Oxford university student by day, a mad girl in an asylum by night. The line between sanity and insanity thins when she meets Jack Diamond, an arrogant college student who believes that nonsense is an actual science.



Figment (#2)



          After her encounter with the Cheshire Cat, Alice Wonder can hardly tell reality from imagination. But when kids have their head chopped off and stuffed in watermelons all over the city, it's clear that another Wonderland Monster has arrived, possibly scarier than the Cheshire. Alice, along with Professor Pillar, have to solve the killer's puzzles before a horrible event threatens the death of millions. Then Jack Diamonds appears again. This time, Alice must know who he really is.



Circus (#3)



Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls...
          There is a loose rabbit with a ticking bomb in the streets of the London.
Come closer, you won'd believe your eyes...
          Alice & the Pillar follow a set of clues, meticulously weaved by the most mysterious Wonderland Monster of all.
Here is the Maddest Show on Earth ... The Circus!
          Where Alice's most unexpected secret will be revealed.
          A secret that will turn tables on good and evil, and complicate Alice's struggles with life, love, and sanity. Will Alice regain part of her sanity back? Catch a bigger monster? Maybe find love in the most unexpected places of all?



Hookah (#4)



A Plague Scarier than Death 
          Alice and the Pillar have to stop a Wonderland Monster who'd lashed out an incurable disease onto the world. Their biggest challenge is that the world loves this monster so much.
A Cure Larger than Life 
          The only way to save the world is to travel to the other side of the globe, and peek into one of Lewis Carroll and the Pillar's darker pasts.
A Truth Madder Than Fiction 
          This time, the price of saving the world is too high. Alice will have to live with the consequences of the maddest logic of the world surrounding her.
          Will Alice find who the Pillar really is? What he wants? Is she brave enough to handle the one Wonderland Monster she'd thought was a good friends? And even so, is the world ready the truth?

About the Author
          Cameron Jace is the bestselling author of the Grimm Diaries and Insanity series. A graduate of the college of Architecture, collector of out-of-print books, he is obsessed with the origins of folk tales and the mysterious storytellers who spread them. Three of his books made Amazon's Top 100 Customer Favorites in Kindle 2013 & Amazon's Top 100 kindle list. Cameron lives in California with his girlfriend. When he isn't writing or collecting books, he is playing music.


1. When I read this book, I learned A LOT about Alice in Wonderland and Lewis Carroll. You obviously did a lot of research. Where did you find all of this information?

        Well, I have been a fan since long, and like in the Grimm Diaries I have always been interested in the authors who wrote long lasting books. But when I started to right the searches the research was hectic. I started with book on Lewis Carroll, interpretations, both mine and others, then I began asking British people who lives in Oxford and London. Those, by far, gave the meat of what I was looking for.

2. How did this book come to be? What inspired you to start the book?

        I hadn't planned to become a retelling/folklore storyteller when I first started. But after the success of the Grimm Diaries I thought I'd give it a try. I had an idea for the Wizard of Oz, but I wasn't passionate about it. Then I read an article one day, a blog actually, about a teacher saying her students told her "this Carroll guy must have been on drugs when he wrote this." It's a funny article, and I agreed to Carroll's beautiful madness, so I thought to start a series where he is in asylum, but thought Alice in a  asylum is much better.
  
3. Your characters are so complex and intriguing. (I know this is more of a statement than a question.) They all had interesting back stories. Did you have trouble building their past?
        Usually, character building takes time, but in Carroll's story I always seem to see through easily. I mean the Pillar is definitely out of his mind, always guiding Alice in gibberish and coded words, without giving away his own past. That's enough for a character study for me:)   

4. Was there anything that was difficult to write?

        This series is the most difficult I wrote. It's tight. Fast paced. Informative, and entangled in long and short-arch plot, so it's not easy. But I love it so much.

5. What part was your favorite to write?

        Frankly, I love the Pillar and Fabiola. Alice, too, but not as much. Lol. I write the Queen, Duchess, and the Cheshire in a very objective way. But what I love even more than all of this are the Wonderland Monsters in the beginning of every book, let alone the commentary on how mad our real world is.

6. What are you currently working on right now?

        A thriller. It's been taking a long time, but for a fantasy story, the shift isn't easy. But I've always wanted to write adults thrillers.

7. Would you want your book to become a movie adaptation? If so, who would be in your dream cast? (I want Johnny Depp because he was in the Alice in Wonderland movie and he's a great actor.)

        Of course! Hmmm... The best Alice I was told was Emma Watson. I don't why, since I am not really a Potter fan. The Pillar would be someone like James Spader, but then I discovered he has a similar role, if not as crazy, in the Blacklist TV series. You'd be surprised if I told I am imagining Michael Fassbender, given we can make him look a bit older.

AHS: Hotel Premier

Yes, I know I'm late with the whole AHS review. I just finished watching it and I'm trying to delay writing my AP essay.

Celebrating Halloween: Ghosts

         The book Rose and I are featuring today gives me nostalgia. It's one of the first few YA books I read and it sparked something. There's an interview and a giveaway!!!!! The ebooks are international and the physical copy is US only.
And the featured is...

Celebrating Halloween: Vampires

       Hello Readers! I teamed up with Paranormal Books again to celebrate a holiday. This is so vague. We'll be celebrating paranormal books and we have a grand giveaway for you to enter. You should expect posts from me on: October 2, 7, 12, 17, 22 and 27  12:00 P.M. EST. Today we're featuring....

The Divide Review


The Divide (Dreamland #2)
by E.J. Mellow
Publish Date: October 15, 2015
        Molly finally uncovers the truth about the strange dreams that plagued her sanity for weeks. Now destined to accept a clandestine role, Molly must find the strength and courage buried deep to push forward and succeed.
        With the help of Dev, the roguish blue-eyed man of her dreams, whose dark past resurfaces to haunt him. Molly prepares to test the limits of her newly awakened powers and set right a world on the edge of being consumed by nightmares.
        But when an unknown shadow stalks her every step and a shocking revelation about her ancestry comes to light, Molly may find herself forced to make a decision that could leave her alone in the dark and standing on the wrong side of a divide.

For New Bloggers and Redesigners

     As you can tell, I recently did a makeover on my blog. After this makeover, my blog looks somewhat decent and I let that get to my head, so I will proceed to act like a know it all and tell you some things. I'll start from the top to the bottom of my blog.

Scream Queens

     I was really excited for this show because
A) This show comes from the minds of Glee AND American Horror Story. These are some of my favorite television shows.
B) It's horror. I don't know why, but I've been obsessed with horror lately.
C) The cast! JAMIE LEE CURTIS! Her mother was in Psycho, PSYCHO!!!!!

The Struggle is Real

     I'm sure we all obsess over our blog set up. I go around and EVERYBODY has an awesome aesthetic and I'm literally a potato. I recently discovered Angie Makes and I am literally crying tears of joy. She has AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL graphics FOR FREE! It is so easy to use too! Her pinterest page also has a bunch of freebies. I'll link the sites I used below.

The Elements/Graphics I used
-The Smell of Roses (I used a lot of their stuff.)

     I downloaded a bunch of the elements and I stored them in Dropbox. It'll save your computer.

Book 1 of the DNF Chronicles

This is going to be a really rage-y review. I go full on bitch mode.



Barking Madness by Ryan Hill
Publish Date: October 19, 2014

     RECOMMENDED FOR READERS 17 AND UP DUE TO STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, DRUG USE, AND MILD VIOLENCE. lol, OK...
     "My life is crumbling away before my eyes while I do nothing to prevent it. I have visited too many funerals, for too many friends who haunt my dreams. Everybody dies eventually, right? No, everybody dies young when they befriend me. Was I born to die young? I don't think so. I'm the only one here with the nerve to stay alive. I can't be left alone. Not with that hollow man, the one who hides his face. That's what he wants, me to be alone, because once I'm alone he's going to kill me!"
     Seventeen-year-old Rosetta Harper is plagued by nightmares of a masked man. With her father’s new career move, her family has just relocated from Florida to the small New England town of Ashwood. A quiet town and close-knit community where you know your neighbors, and trouble is a word unspoken. But soon after her arrival, her world and the worlds of her classmates come crashing down.
     Michael hates his family and feels alone and unloved. He only finds comfort when he's with his friends, but even they get on his nerves. Everything about Ashwood and his life bores him, until Rosetta Harper moves into town. With her as a new classmate, Michael finally gets the excitement he was looking for, but it may be at too high a cost.

Like It Never Happened Blog Tour: Playlist+Dream Cast

Tour Schedule


Like It Never Happened by Emily Adrian
Publish Date: June 2, 2015
Publisher: Dial Books
     When Rebecca Rivers lands the lead in her school’s production of The Crucible, she gets to change roles in real life, too. She casts off her old reputation, grows close with her four rowdy cast-mates, and kisses the extremely handsome Charlie Lamb onstage.
     Though The Essential Five vow never to date each other, Rebecca can't help her feelings for Charlie, leaving her both conflicted and lovestruck. But the on and off-stage drama of the cast is eclipsed by a life-altering accusation that threatens to destroy everything, even if some of it is just make believe.

About the Author

   Emily Adrian was born in 1989 in the suburbs of Portland, Oregon. After graduating from Portland State University, she moved to Toronto, Ontario, where she worked as a receptionist while secretly writing books.
   Emily currently lives in Toronto with her husband and their dog named Hank. Like It Never Happened is her debut novel.

How to Make Book Lovers Happy

Is it just me, or do book lovers get some hate? My parents tell me I buy too many books and spend too much money on it. I'm teased (gently) by other kids for reading too much and enjoying books. That makes me kind of sad, and I think other book lovers can relate. So, here's what you should do to make them happy.

The Last Necromancer Blog Tour

Click on the image to see the tour schedule


The Last Necromancer (The Ministry of Curiosities #1)
Author: C.J. Archer
Publish date: August 11, 2015
Publisher: Smashwords
     Set in Victorian London, Charlotte (Charlie) Holloway has lived as a boy in the slums for five years. But when one theft too many gets her arrested, her only means of escape lies with a dead man. Charlie hasn't raised a spirit since she first discovered she could do so five years ago. That time, her father banished her. This time, she brings even more trouble upon herself.
     People are now hunting Charlie all over London, but only one man succeeds in capturing her.
     Lincoln Fitzroy is the mysterious head of a secret organization on the trail of a madman who needs a necromancer to control his newly "made" creatures. There was only one known necromancer in the world-Charlotte-but now there appears to be two. Lincoln captures the willful Charlie in the hopes the boy will lead him to Charlotte. But what happens when he discovers the boy is in fact the young woman he's been searching for all along? And will she agree to work for the man who held her against her will, and for an organization she doesn't trust?

Rating: It's aight

Cape May



Cape May by Holly Caster
Needs a Goodreads page and publishing information.
     New Yorker Joanna Matthews is rapidly approaching 60 and desperate for a change. The last remotely daring thing she did-jumping into an unconventional marriage with her best friend Brian-happened 20 years ago. Now, their life’s comfortable, if routine. Joanna craves more and begins pursuing her long-deferred dream: owning and running a bed & breakfast. She’s captivated by Cape May, New Jersey, America's Oldest Seaside Resort. On the bus south, she meets a novelist, and is thunderstruck when she falls passionately in love for the first time. How will her late awakening affect the future and her three-decade relationship with Brian?